If I went to her there would be a scene.

If I said I had been disinherited she would want to know why--naturally.

I had quarreled with the governor--yes, but why?
Then I should have to tell her the real reason: I didn't want to marry her or anybody else on such a bargain-counter basis.

That seemed such a rotten thing to say, and she might ask why it had taken me such a long time to find it out.

No, I just COULDN'T tell her that.