I know no lust that I would not be content to part with to-night.
My will, bound hand and foot, I desire to lay at His feet.' Now, is it not as clear as noonday that in the case of such a man as Boston his mind is one thing and his heart another?
Is it not plain that he has both a good-will and an ill-will within him?
A will that immediately and resolutely chooses for God, and for truth, and for righteousness, and for love; and another law in his members warring against that law of his mind?
'Before conversion,' says Thomas Shepard, 'the main wound of a man is in his will.

And then, after conversion, though his will is changed, yet, _ex infirmitate_, there are many things that he cannot do, so strong is the remnant of malignity that is still in his heart.

Let him get Christ to help him here.' In all that ye see your calling, my brethren.
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'Now, if I do that I would not,' adds the apostle, extricating himself and giving himself fair-play and his simple due among all his misery and self-accusation--'Now, if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.' Or, again, as William Law has it: 'All our natural evil ceases to be our own evil as soon as our will turns away from it.

Our natural evil then changes its nature and loses all its poison and death, and becomes an holy cross on which we die to self and this life and enter the kingdom of heaven.' My dear brethren, tell me, is your sin your cross?
Is your sinfulness your cross?
Is the evil that is ever present with you your holy cross?
For, every other cross beside sin is a cross of straw, a cross of feathers, a paste-board and a painted cross, and not a real and genuine cross at all.
The wood and the nails and the spear all taken together were not our Lord's real cross.