My home I could not go near--the sight of it and of the children would have driven me utterly mad.

I lived in the town.

For a week or so I tried hard to keep up appearances--but the evil spirit was on me, and I could not withstand him.

I had not then learnt to look to a Greater for strength.

I must fly once more from one misery to another tenfold worse.
"But I had no money.