You seem to think this perfectly natural--do you?
Well, I don't know.

I don't know why I have; but it is a fact.

This fact makes everything possible, because without it I would never have thought of disregarding my father's wishes.

I would never have disposed of the Concession as a speculator disposes of a valuable right to a company--for cash and shares, to grow rich eventually if possible, but at any rate to put some money at once in his pocket.

No.
Even if it had been feasible--which I doubt--I would not have done so.
Poor father did not understand.