My heart and spirit are broken.

I am fit for nothing but to go and hide myself, and my shame and misery, from all eyes that have ever looked on me.

I shall never come back, never expect your pity or forgiveness.

If you think less harshly of me when I am gone, keep secret what has happened; let no other lips say of me what yours and your wife's have said.

I shall think that forbearance atonement enough--atonement greater than I have deserved.