Often I mourned over my sins, and sometimes had a great conflict through unbelief, fear, temptation, to return back again to my old ways, and a variety of difficulties which lay in my way.

But He who loved me with an everlasting love, drew me by his loving-kindness, showed me the way of peace, gradually strengthened me in my resolutions of leading a new life, and taught me, that while without him I could do nothing, I yet might do all things through his strength." "Did you not find many difficulties in your situation, owing to your change of principle and practice ?" "Yes, sir, every day of my life.

I was laughed at by some, scolded at by others, scorned by enemies, and pitied by friends.

I was called hypocrite, saint, false deceiver, and many more names which were meant to render me hateful in the sight of the world.

But I esteemed the reproach of the Cross an honour.