As I sat there looking at the cards I knew all this, knew quite clearly that I must escape Semyonov.

There's no madness in this.
Whilst he is there I'm nothing--but without him, if I were with her again--I was always beaten easily by anybody but in this at least I can be strong.

I don't hate him but I know that he will always be first as long as we're together.

And we seem to be tied now like dogs by their tails, tied by our thoughts of Marie....
Well, anyway I turned up the Ace.

My heart seemed to jump right upside down when I saw it.