I understand various bits of your nature; but my knowledge is always fragmentary and disconnected, and when I attempt to make a whole of the mosaics I merely get a kaleidoscopic effect.

Do you know those geographical dissected puzzles that they give to children?
You remind me of one of them.
"I have spent many charming (and dangerous) hours trying to 'put you together'; but I find, when I examine my picture closely, that after all I've made a purple mountain grow out of a green tree; that my river is running up a steep hillside; and that the pretty milkmaid, who should be wandering in the forest, is standing on her head with her pail in the air "Do you understand yourself clearly?
Or is it just possible that when you dive to the depths of your own consciousness, you sometimes find the pretty milkmaid standing on her head?
I wonder!".

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Ah, well, it is no wonder that he wonders! So do I, for that matter!.