It was a perfectly real experience and I could see Him as a great Shadow--not unkind, loving me, but relentless.

Then the day came that I proposed to you and I fainted.

I knew then that I was not to be allowed so easy a happiness.

Still I struggled, but now God seemed to have shut off all the real world and only left me the unreal one--and I began to be afraid that I was going mad." She suddenly bent down and kissed him; she stayed then, until he had finished, with her head buried in his coat.
"It wasn't any good--I knew all the time that it could only end one way.
"Everything betrayed me, every one left me.

I thought every moment that Rupert would tell me.