It fastened itself in my mind gradually as a Pursuit, and it seemed to me too that, as the days passed, I began slowly to understand the nature of the Pursuer--that He was kind and tender but also relentless, remorseless.

I was frightened.

I flung myself into College things--games and every kind of noise because I was so afraid of silence.

And all the time some one urged me to obedience.

That was all that He demanded, that I should be passive and obey His orders.