This point of view changed his position to the extent of his now almost appealing to Olva to help him out of it.
"Your telling me like that has made it all so difficult.

I feel now suddenly as though I hated Carfax and hadn't the least objection to somebody doing for him.

And _that's_ all wrong--murder's an awful thing--one ought to feel bad about it." Then finally, with the cry of a child in the dark, "But this _isn't_ life, it never _has_ been life since that day I heard of Carfax being killed.

It's the sort of thing--it's been for weeks the sort of thing--that you read of in books or see at the Adelphi; and I'm not that kind of fellow.

I tell you I've been mad all this last month, getting it on the brain, seeing things night and day.