These vague phrases have not allowed me to sleep.
I have been deploring, ever since yesterday, that my diffidence and vacillation of purpose should, notwithstanding a certain obstinacy of character I may possess, have left me unable to reply to these insinuations.

In a word, therefore, M.de Wardes was setting off for Paris, and I did not delay his departure with explanations; for it seemed rather hard, I confess, to cross-examine a man whose wounds are hardly yet closed.

In short, he traveled by short stages, as he was anxious to leave, he said, in order to be present at a curious spectacle which the court cannot fail to offer within a very short time.

He added a few congratulatory words, accompanied by certain sympathizing expressions.

I could not understand the one any more than the other; I was bewildered by my own thoughts, and then tormented by a mistrust of this man--a mistrust which, you know better than anyone else, I have never been able to overcome.
As soon as he left, my perception seemed to become clearer.