12/17 Every one will cry out at me, and I know that I deserve it. Pity me, John"-- here her voice broke down--"but, for God's sake, leave me to myself for a time." "Let it be a short time, then," said John, sadly. "I must say I am grieved to see that this is such a hard trial to you. After all that has been, all you have told me, I did not expect to find you so weak and selfish." "I am weak and I am selfish," sobbed Rachel; "do not expect to find me anything else. I am struggling to be something better; but whatever I am, John, be sure that I love you, and have loved you all these years. |