This solitude was a perilous luxury to one of her temperament; so liable as she was to morbid and acute mental suffering.
On March 6th, 1843, she writes thus:-- "I am settled by this time, of course.

I am not too much overloaded with occupation; and besides teaching English, I have time to improve myself in German.

I ought to consider myself well off, and to be thankful for my good fortunes.

I hope I am thankful; and if I could always keep up my spirits and never feel lonely, or long for companionship, or friendship, or whatever they call it, I should do very well.

As I told you before, M.and Madame Heger are the only two persons in the house for whom I really experience regard and esteem, and of course, I cannot be always with them, nor even very often.