CHAPTER XI.
If you feel no love, sit still; occupy yourself with things, with yourself, with anything you like, only not with men.
-- TOLSTOY.
In Wentworth's youth he had been attracted towards many, besides the Bishop, among the bolder and less conventional of his contemporaries.
Their fire, their energies, their enthusiasm, warmed his somewhat under-vitalized nature.

He regarded himself as one of them, and his refinement and distinction drew the robuster spirits towards himself.
But gradually, as time went on, these energies and enthusiasm took form, and, alas! took forms which he had not expected--he never expected anything--and from which his mind instinctively recoiled.

He had supposed that energy was energy.

He had not realised that it was life in embryo, that might develop, not always on lines of beauty, into a new policy, or a great discovery, or a passion, or a vocation.

He hated transformations, new births, all change.