And then he asks whether he ever ill-used me?
Was he ever false to me?
Do I think, that were I to choose to submit the matter to the iniquitous practices of the present Divorce Court, I could prove anything against him by which even that low earthly judge would be justified in taking from him his marital authority?
And if not,--have I no conscience?
Can I reconcile it to myself to make his life utterly desolate and wretched simply because duties which I took upon myself at my marriage have become distasteful to me?
These questions would be very hard to answer, were there not other questions that I could ask.

Of course I was wrong to marry him.

I know that now, and I repent my sin in sackcloth and ashes.

But I did not leave him after I married him till he had brought against me horrid accusations,--accusations which a woman could not bear, which, if he believed them himself, must have made it impossible for him to live with me.

Could any wife live with a husband who declared to her face that he believed that she had a lover?
And in this very letter he says that which almost repeats the accusation.