I cannot remain and support myself without becoming subject to the same conditions as existed at home.

I cannot expect them to be willing to lessen their present expenses much for the sake of gaining time for spiritual culture; nor do I see how I can at home live with my relatives and have the time which I require.

I see no way but to give up the taste for fine clothing and variety in food.

I would prefer the life of the monastery to that of the external world.

The advantages for my being are greater.