Why should I not be satisfied when I am living, growing?
Did Christ and His apostles study languages?
I have the life--is not that the end ?" "April 28 .-- What shall I say?
Am I wrong?
Should I submit and give myself up to that which does not engage my whole being?
To me the Church is not the great object of life.

I am now out of it in the common meaning.

I am not subject to its ordinances.

Is it not best for me to accept my own nature rather than attempt to mould it as though it were an object?
Is not our own existence more than this existence in the world?
"I read this morning an extract from Heine upon Schelling which affected me more than anything I have read for six months.

The Church, says Schelling in substance, was first Petrine, then Pauline, and must be love-embracing, John-like.