And yet he was silently asking ordination in a preaching order, for which a thorough education is a prerequisite.

Father de Held, therefore, is not to be condemned for his harshness as wanting in sympathy or in judgment of character.
Gold is tried by fire, and fire is an active agent and a painful one.
But Brother Hecker soon found both solace and assistance in a new friend.
We quote from the memoranda: "Father de Held was superior at Clapham and for a year he treated me as Henry Suso says a dog treats a rag--he took me in his teeth and shook me.

At last I went to him and begged him to settle my case one way or the other: ordain me, or make a lay brother of me, or take off my habit and dismiss me to another order; though I told him that would be like taking off my skin.

Father de Buggenoms then went my surety.

He had been my confessor at Clapham and was then absent.