The reader will remember _ein herrliches Essen_ at Concord: "bread, maple-sugar, and apples." In the middle of February he opened his mind more fully to Bishop McCloskey, whom he continually calls his spiritual director.

He had now to reveal the discoveries of holy penance, and to add to his other motives for leaving the world the dread of falling into mortal sin.

He had, he tells us, misgivings as to whether he was ambitious or not.

One of his spiritual states he thus alludes to: "I will ask my confessor how it is--if it is so with others, that they feel no sense of things, no joy, no reality, no emotion, no impulse, nothing positive within or around," but only the consciousness of the need of a terrible atonement.

This is accompanied by frantic prayers to God, invocations of the Blessed Virgin, St.Francis of Assisi and other saints.