"If not this, what ?" he asks himself.
"I feel deeply and strongly that the circle of family happiness is not sufficient for my nature, but what I can profitably do outside of this I have not the ability to say.
"That our real wishes are presentiments of our capabilities is a very true proverb, no doubt; but are we not most ignorant of what these are?
It seems as though we are all unconsciously educated for unknown ends and purposes.
"I look upon myself as belonging to that class of decidedly unfortunate beings who have no marked talent for any particular pursuit.

The words talent, genius, have for me no application whatever.

I stand on the confines of both worlds, not feeling the necessity nor having the true valor to decide for either sphere.
"O heaven! why was this deep, ever-burning life given me, unless it be that I might be slowly and painfully consumed by it?
All greatness is in the actor, not in the act.

He whom God has blessed with an end in life, can earnestly labor to accomplish that end.

But alas for that poor mortal whose existence only serves to fill up space in the world! How excruciating to him to be conscious of this! O Prometheus! "Simply to be what God would have us, is to be greater than to have the applause of the whole world otherwise.