We should see it and be recipients of all its blessings without knowing its existence.

But darkness came, and man knew.

Alas! in knowing he lost all that he possessed before.
"Jesus came to restore man to that eternal day from which Adam fell." About this time he mentions having spent a day in the woods with some friends, at Fort Lee; it is the only allusion we find to any sort of recreation or companionship with others.

He sat alone for an hour, he says, in a pleasant spot which overlooked the Hudson and the high Palisade rocks, and "seemed to be in communion with the infinite invisible all around in all the deep avenues of the soul." Four days before his baptism comes this anticipation of it: "New York, July 27, '44 .-- I have commenced acting.

My union with the Catholic Church is my first real, true act.