If so, and I could remain there for a certain length of time, why should I not go?
I will inquire further about it when next I speak with the bishop.
"There is a college at Fordham where there is to be a commencement to-morrow, which the bishop invited me to go and see.

Perhaps I shall find this place to be suitable, and may be led to examine and try it.
The Lord knows all; into His hands I resign myself." His impressions of the Catholic college at Fordham he does not record.

The next entry in the diary is, as usual, taken up with the large topics which for the most part excluded particular incidents from mention.

What his strict abstinence from permitted pleasures, and the rigorous self-discipline which he had so long practised, meant to himself, may be partly gathered from the extract we are about to give.

He says he does not call such denial, "in strict language, the denial of our true, God-created, immortal self, but the denial of that which is not myself, but which has usurped the place of my true, eternal, heavenly, Adamic being.