To be sure I have contracted my wants as respects eating as far as seems possible to me; somewhat in dress, but not as far as I should and can do.

As for pleasures and many other causes of expenditure, I trust I am not immoderate.

In this part of the world I do not see any prepared, congenial conditions.

If I were in Europe, I should find in the Catholic Church institutions which I could enter for a time, until this period of my life would either fix itself permanently, or give place to another in which I could see my way more clearly.

But here I am, and not in Europe.