Alas! I cry, who am I and what does this mean?
and I am lost in wonder." "Saturday, July 21 .-- Yesterday, after supper, a conversation took place between Mr.Alcott, Mr.Lane, and myself; the subject was my position with regard to my family, my duty, and my position here.

Mr.
Alcott asked for my first impressions as regards the hindrances I have noted since coming here.

I told him candidly they were: 1st, his want of frankness; 2d, his disposition to separateness rather than win co-operators with the aims in his own mind; 3d, his family, who prevent his immediate plans of reformation; 4th, the fact that this place has very little fruit on it, while it was and is their desire that fruit should be the principal part of their diet; 5th, my fear that they have too decided a tendency toward literature and writing for the prosperity and success of their enterprise.
"My relations with my family are very critical at this period--more so than they have ever been.

It is the crisis of the state we have been in for this past year.

If God gives me strength to be true to the spirit, it is very doubtful how far those at home will be willing to second it.