16/39 He said not a word, but his eyes were full of tears. He would rather be considered hard and heartless than soft and weak, and nothing was more repugnant to him than the idea that he had aroused suspicion of striving to enact a touching scene. I have no doubt that at that moment he was suffering the torture of self-reproach, and probably suffered the more through being so reserved and unable to give free play to his feelings. In his happiest years he could laugh like any youth, and carried his audience with him by his unaffected merriment. |