Sir Christopher would send her away--would never see her again, if he knew all; and she would be happier to be punished and frowned on, than to be treated tenderly while she had that guilty secret in her breast.

But then, if Sir Christopher were to know all, it would add to his sorrow, and make him more wretched than ever.
No! she could not confess it--she should have to tell about Anthony.

But she could not stay at the Manor; she must go away; she could not bear Sir Christopher's eye, could not bear the sight of all these things that reminded her of Anthony and of her sin.

Perhaps she should die soon: she felt very feeble; there could not be much life in her.

She would go away and live humbly, and pray to God to pardon her, and let her die.
The poor child never thought of suicide.