To wait till all was propitious might mean continual delays.
The very fact of my uncertainty as to whether or not I should have the courage of my wishes at the critical moment made an indefinite prolongation of my present condition undesirable.

Better one straight risk and be done with it.
"I was to wait two weeks.

Why she exacted so long and seemingly unnecessary a delay, I do not know.

Before I saw her, I thought it was from a sheer desire to make me suffer; now I know it was not for that.
However, it did make me suffer, from the alternate weakening and strengthening of my resolve.

When the day came, the most trivial of circumstances would have deterred me from what still had the nature of a dream to me.