I can't look back to it with pleasure.

I am too old to look forward to what is left of it with hope.

There was something in that night at your house before the wedding--something in what you said, in what your sister did--which altered me.

I have had my days of gloom and self-reproach, from time to time, since then.

I have sickened at my slavery, and subjection, and duplicity, and cringing, first under one master then under another.