I always have had ever since mamma died--at least, since a short time after.

But we were very poor, I think, after papa died.

I think we must have been.

I was only a little girl when mamma died, but I seem to remember living in a very little, shabby place in New York--very little and shabby--and I seem to remember a great deal of noise.

Sometimes I wonder if we could have lived beside the elevated road.