Dwight has praised me to her, of course--but she'll put his liking down to that--the--the--the sex side! I must show her it isn't, that I've got more, that I don't want men but women now! But not too hard or eager, you know.

Oh, I must watch her all the time, to see if I'm getting any hold.

And then, the minute I see my chance, I must tell her my trouble--no, my big chance--all I was just on the point of doing with Joe, and could do now--if only I had her for a friend!" Such thinking was spasmodic and often disconnected.

Thoughts of Joe kept breaking in, and of what she should do if she failed with him.
And again, putting down with an effort all such thoughts and fancies, she took Susette and the baby and went out for a walk in the Park.

It was one of those balmy days that come in winter now and then, and Ethel sat down on a bench for a while.
But then she looked around with a start.