But she would not let herself think of the matter, and she would not make inquiries.
The result was that she did not sleep well for several nights.

She was annoyed at herself, because she found that she kept lying awake as if listening or waiting.

And it was not a good thing to lose one's sleep when one wanted particularly to keep strong.
Jane Cupp during this week was, to use her own words, "given quite a turn" by an incident which, though a small matter, might have proved untoward in its results.
The house at Palstrey, despite its age, was in a wonderful state of preservation, the carved oak balustrades of the stairways being considered particularly fine.
"What but Providence," said Jane piously, in speaking to her mother the next morning, "made me look down the staircase as I passed through the upper landing just before my lady was going down to dinner.

What but Providence I couldn't say.

It certainly wasn't because I've done it before that I remember.