5/12 There is a drama being played out before my very eyes. The figures in it move about me continually, yet I alone am blindfolded. I am trusted to almost an incredible extent. I have been given such a post as a man might work for a lifetime to secure. Yet where a little confidence would give me zest for my work--would take away this horrible sense of moving always in the darkness--it is withheld from me." Ray smoked on in silence for several moments. |