Respect and tenderness for her he certainly felt and expressed; but there is no indication that she ever enkindled his ardent imagination, or filled for him the place of an ideal, which his mental constitution imperatively demanded as an object of worship.

The present attachment went so far with him that he wrote to his uncle William Suckling, asking for an allowance to enable him to marry.

"If nothing can be done for me," said he, gloomily, "I know what I have to trust to.

Life is not worth preserving without happiness; and I care not where I may linger out a miserable existence.

I am prepared to hear your refusal, and have fixed my resolution if that should happen....