I am finished.

It is all over with me now--all! I hope the end will come quickly," and he moved away to the window, his tears falling heavily.
FOOTNOTES: [33] The rest of this story concerns me chiefly and I have therefore relegated it to the Appendix for those who care to read it.
[34] Oscar was already getting L300 a year from his wife and Robert Ross, to say nothing of the hundreds given to him from time to time by other friends.
[35] The truth about this I have already stated.
[36] Though I have reported this conversation as faithfully as I can and have indeed softened the impression Lord Alfred Douglas made upon me at the time; still I am conscious that I may be doing him some injustice.

I have never really been in sympathy with him and it may well be that in reporting him here faithfully I am showing him at his worst.

I am aware that the incident does not reveal him at his best.

He has proved since in his writings and notably in some superb sonnets that he had a real affection and admiration for Oscar Wilde.