Then: "I want to tell you somethin', Sanderson.

I've tried to hate you, but I ain't never succeeded.

I've admired you.

I've cussed myself for doin' it, but I couldn't help it.

An' because I couldn't hate you, I tried my best to do things that would make you hate me.
"I've deviled Mary Bransford because I thought it would stir you up.