I think shortly that by the plan I have vague thoughts of pursuing I may gain an influence among minds which will certainly be, if I win it, of a very high kind.
I dare not risk the possibilities by flying at lower game.
"Besides, I do not feel nearly enough assured of my ground to say that active work, as you describe it, is either advisable or necessary.

I want to examine and consider, to turn life and thought inside out, to see if I can piece together in the least the enormous problem of which God has flung us the fragments.

I do not despair of arriving at some inkling of that truth.

I shall try, if I gain it, to communicate that glimmering to others, if that is God's will for me; if not, perhaps I shall be a little wiser or a little happier, at least a little more capable of receiving my illumination, when the time for that comes.
"I don't feel as if I understood at all clearly what is God's purpose for individuals.

I can't take public opinion for granted.