I am what I am for the same reason.

You get your happiness, I get mine.

Do me a good turn when you can, but don't reason with me; let us enjoy each other's company and take things as they are." I took him on his own terms; I saw much of him, and when he was in difficulties I helped him out.
For a time I became his keeper, and when he had chess engagements to fulfil I used to deliver him carriage paid to his destination wherever it might be.

He always and most punctiliously repaid any monetary obligation I had conferred upon him, for in that respect I found him the soul of honour, poor though he was! As I think of him I see him dancing and yelling in the street, surrounded by a crowd of admiring East Enders, I see him bruised and torn hurried off to the police station, I see him standing before the magistrate awaiting judgment.

What compensation dipsomania gave him I know not, but that he did get some kind of wild joy I am quite sure.