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The Emigrants Of Ahadarra

CHAPTER XXI
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He voted for Vanston--that can't be denied; and proved himself to have less honesty and scruple than even that profligate Hycy Burke; and if he made a bargain with Vanston, as is clear he did, an' voted for him because the other got his fine reduced, why that is worse, because then he did it knowingly an' with his eyes open, an' contrary to his conscience--ay, an' to his solemn promise to myself; for I'll tell you now what I never mentioned before, that I put him on his guard against doing so; and he knew that if he did, all would and must be over between him and me." "Is that true, Kathleen ?" said Hanna with surprise; "but why need I ask you such a question--it's enough that you say it--in that case then I give him up at last; but who, oh, who could a' believed it ?" "But that is not all," continued Kathleen, in the same mournful and resigned tone of voice--"there's the bribe--didn't hundreds hear him acknowledge publicly in the chapel that he got it?
What more is wanting?
How could I ever respect a man that has proved himself to be without either honesty or principle?
and why should it happen, that the man who has so openly and so knowingly disgraced his religion and his name fall to my lot?
Oh, no--it matters little how I love him, and I grant that in spite of all that has happened I have a lingering affection for him even yet; still I don't think that affection will live long--I can now neither respect or esteem him, an' when that is the case I can't surely continue long to love him.

I know," she proceeded, "that it's not possible for him ever to clear himself of this shocking and shameful conduct; but lest there might be any chance of it, I now say before you all, that if something doesn't come about within three months, that may and ought to change my feelings towards him, I'll live afterwards as if I had never known him." "Mightn't you see him, however, an' hear what he has to say for himself ?" asked Hanna.
"No," the other replied; "he heard my message, and was silent.

You may rest assured if he had anything to say in his own defence, he would have said it, or asked to see me.

Oh, no, no, because I feel that he's defenceless." In this peculiar state of circumstances our readers need not feel surprised that every possible agency was employed to urge her beyond the declaration she had made, and to induce her to receive the addresses of Edward Burke.

Her own parents, old Jemmy Burke, the whole body of her relatives, each in turn, and sometimes several of them together, added to which we may mention the parish priest, who was called in by both families, or at least by old Jemmy Burke and the Cavanaghs--all we say perpetually assailed her on the subject of a union with Edward Burke, and assailed her so pertinaciously, that out of absolute apathy, if not despair, and sick besides of their endless importunities, she at last said--"If Edward Burke can be satisfied with a wife that has no heart to give him, or that cannot love him, I don't care much how I am disposed of; he may as well call me wife as another, and better, for if I cannot love, I can at least respect him." These circumstances, together with the period allowed to M'Mahon for setting himself, if possible, right with Kathleen, in due time reached his ears.


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