I am fortunately in an independent position, _bonheur oblige_, and I have courage, so I will make the attempt.

But I must first get home, not only because I am as homesick as a child--for I know perfectly well that when I have been at home for a short time, I shall be anxious to start again on my travels--but I feel that if I am to accomplish anything, I must be among those I wish to help.

I also wish to be able to go abroad again, and thus make existence more interesting; but I must at the same time have a _pied a terre_ at home, so as to be able to return whenever I may desire to do so.

And now comes the great 'but' which is, in fact, the chief point in this letter--and that, Mr.Worse, is yourself.
"I do not wish to return home before I know clearly in what position we stand to each other.

Of this I feel convinced, that you have no ill feeling towards me on account of my former behaviour to you.