4/17 I've found I couldn't be a minister as Grandad had set his heart on my being--" "But if you haven't done anything wicked, why not ?" "Oh, I'm not a believer." "In what ?" "In anything, I think--except, well, in you and Grandad and--and Allan and Clytie--yes, and in myself, Nance. I believe in myself." "And you're going because you don't believe in other things ?" "Yes, or because I believe too much--just as you like to put it. I demanded a better God of Grandad, Nance--one that didn't create hell and men like me to fill it just for the sake of scaring a few timid mortals into heaven." "You know Aunt Bell is an unbeliever. She says no one with an open mind can live twenty years in Boston without being vastly broadened--'broadening into the higher unbelief,' she calls it. |