Iddio abbi di me misericordia, che costoro m' hanno carico di cibo.

Oh indiscrezione!'[5] Then he expresses a vehement desire for the services of a learned confessor, to resolve his intellectual doubts, pleading with all the earnestness of desperate conviction that the salvation of his soul must depend upon his orthodoxy at the last.

He complains that he ought to have been allowed at least a month's seclusion with good friars before he was brought face to face with death.

At another time he is chiefly anxious to free himself from classic memories: 'Deh! Luca, cavatemi della testa quel Bruto, accio ch' io faccia questo passo interamente da Cristiano'.[6] Then again it grieves him that the tears of compunction, which he has been taught to regard as the true sign of a soul at one with God, will not flow.

About the mere fact of dying he has no anxiety.