May Heaven spare me! I need tell you no more.

A girl of eighteen madly, passionately in love; a girl as ignorant as any girl could be, and a handsome, experienced man of the world.
"There was no hope, no chance.

I fell; yet almost without knowing how I had fallen.

You will spare me the rest, I know.
"When in my sore anguish and distress, I went to him, I thought he would marry me at once; I thought he would be longing only to make me happy again; to comfort me; to solace me; to make amends for all I had suffered.

I went to him in London with my heart full of longing and love.