For, after all, there is something not quite above board in this affair.

Why did the Abbe Plomb promise the Benedictines that he would take me with him?
"He certainly acted on the request of the Abbe Gevresin.

There can have been no other reason for his talking of me to the Fathers.

I have, indeed, spoken to him of my distress of mind, of my vague craving for retirement, and my love for monasteries.

But I certainly did not suggest that he should thus take the lead, and hurry matters on so! "Here I am, as usual, imagining plots and schemes, looking for things that never existed, and discerning motives where perhaps there are none.
And even if there were! Is it not for my benefit that these good friends are laying their heads together?
"I have only to hear and obey.