17/27 I wanted to make love to her--oh, immensely, but I was never in the mood, or the opportunity was never forthcoming. I used to have the wildest fits of irritation; not of madness or of depression, but of simple wildness at the continual recurrence of small obstacles. I couldn't read, couldn't bring myself to it. I used to sit and look dazedly at the English newspapers--at any newspaper but the _Hour_. De Mersch had, for the moment, disappeared. |