You are right.

The girl I cared for--the girl who was there with me on Brier Water--so many, many centuries ago--the girl who, years ago, leaned there beside me on the sun-dial--has become a memory." "What do you mean ?" she asked faintly.
"Shall I tell you ?" "Yes." "You will not be unhappy if I tell you ?" "N-no." "Have you any idea what I am going to say, Eileen ?" She looked up quickly, frightened at the tremor in his voice: "Don't--don't say it, Captain Selwyn!" "Will you listen--as a penance ?" "I--no, I cannot--" He said quietly: "I was afraid you could not listen.

You see, Eileen, that, after all, a man does know when he is done for--" "Captain Selwyn!" She turned and caught his hands in both of hers, her eyes bright with tears: "Is that the penalty for what I said?
Did you think I invited this--" "Invited! No, child," he said gently.

"I was fool enough to believe in myself; that is all.

I have always been on the edge of loving you.