But no training had succeeded in eradicating a strong mind's instinct of self-confidence, and if up till now he had committed no rebellion, it was because his reason had been rather a voluntary and eager helper than a captive or slave to the tribunal he distinguished from it by the name of conscience.

With some surprise at himself--a surprise that now took the place of shame--he recognized that he was not ready to take everything for granted, that he must know that what he was flying from was in fact sin, not only that it might be.

That it was sin he fully believed, but he would be sure.

So much triumph his passion extorted from him as he paced irresolutely up and down the square in front of Euston, after seeing Kate and Haddington safely away, while the porter and cabman wondered why the traveler seemed not sure where he wanted to go.

Of their wonder and their irreverent suggestions he was supremely careless.
No, he would not go back at once to his active work.