I assure you...." He was covered with an extreme confusion.
He withdrew the finger that was still thrust between the pages of Gulliver, opened the book, and ran his eye down the list of chapters, as though he were about to select the one most suitable for reading aloud.
As Katharine watched him, she was seized with preliminary symptoms of his own panic.

At the same time she was convinced that, should he find the right page, take out his spectacles, clear his throat, and open his lips, a chance that would never come again in all their lives would be lost to them both.
"We're talking about things that interest us both very much," she said.
"Shan't we go on talking, and leave Swift for another time?
I don't feel in the mood for Swift, and it's a pity to read any one when that's the case--particularly Swift." The presence of wise literary speculation, as she calculated, restored William's confidence in his security, and he replaced the book in the bookcase, keeping his back turned to her as he did so, and taking advantage of this circumstance to summon his thoughts together.
But a second of introspection had the alarming result of showing him that his mind, when looked at from within, was no longer familiar ground.

He felt, that is to say, what he had never consciously felt before; he was revealed to himself as other than he was wont to think him; he was afloat upon a sea of unknown and tumultuous possibilities.
He paced once up and down the room, and then flung himself impetuously into the chair by Katharine's side.

He had never felt anything like this before; he put himself entirely into her hands; he cast off all responsibility.

He very nearly exclaimed aloud: "You've stirred up all these odious and violent emotions, and now you must do the best you can with them." Her near presence, however, had a calming and reassuring effect upon his agitation, and he was conscious only of an implicit trust that, somehow, he was safe with her, that she would see him through, find out what it was that he wanted, and procure it for him.
"I wish to do whatever you tell me to do," he said.