And she thought of them and looked at the faces passing, and thought how much alike they were, and how distant, nobody feeling anything as she felt nothing, and distance, she thought, lay inevitably between the closest, and their intimacy was the worst presence of all.

For, "Oh dear," she thought, looking into a tobacconist's window, "I don't care for any of them, and I don't care for William, and people say this is the thing that matters most, and I can't see what they mean by it." She looked desperately at the smooth-bowled pipes, and wondered--should she walk on by the Strand or by the Embankment?
It was not a simple question, for it concerned not different streets so much as different streams of thought.

If she went by the Strand she would force herself to think out the problem of the future, or some mathematical problem; if she went by the river she would certainly begin to think about things that didn't exist--the forest, the ocean beach, the leafy solitudes, the magnanimous hero.

No, no, no! A thousand times no!--it wouldn't do; there was something repulsive in such thoughts at present; she must take something else; she was out of that mood at present.

And then she thought of Mary; the thought gave her confidence, even pleasure of a sad sort, as if the triumph of Ralph and Mary proved that the fault of her failure lay with herself and not with life.