"I've gone on in the dark, making mistakes and discoveries from the very beginning, undoing and doing over again, creating illusions and then destroying them--always moving, always changing, always growing in new directions.

A year ago I'd have laughed at the idea that I could love any man but Arthur--that of all men I could love Ben O'Hara; and to-day I know that he is the future for me--that he is the beginning again of my youth.

A year ago I thought only how I might change him, how I might make him over, and now I realize that I shall never change him, that I shall never make him over, and that it doesn't really matter.

It isn't the vital thing.

The vital thing is character, and I wouldn't change that if I could.